Wednesday, November 13, 2013

give me a break .

getting back to normal is hard . not alot of people get this . i often feel overwhelmed ...  i dont like it .. i started home bound all the work is overwhelming honestly especially the math ... i dont get it .. and i suck at math im really not that smart ... i know more common knowledge than i do book knowledge .but illl figure it out... er well i hope ... sorry i havent been updating alot has been going on ive had therapy , physical therapy , occupational therapy , youth, and went on a church retreat but nothing has really changed ..

anyways till later,
Leslie

Monday, October 28, 2013

All alone in an empty room

The day started off smooth , I actually enjoyed physical and occupational  therapy , I really like my therapists.  As the day has went on it's seem to gotten worse I don't feel the best and I'm thinking a lot . I do not like thinking it usually makes me sad. Recently I've been thinking a lot about how everyone is having a good time doing stuff with friends and I'm just stuck here not really wanting to get out of bed because I'm sad . I feel like I'm all alone in this world sometimes.  I'm lonely and it's not fun .. I wish someone could understand . Depression is a monster.  

~ love always,
 Leslie

Friday, October 25, 2013

A cold day

It's freezing here in East Tennessee , I woke up early to take a shower this morning and had to leave the house with wet hair such a joy. But anyways today was Appointment day I saw the doctor at the affiliate , they did not do blood work , she said I looked well! I also met my physical and occupational therapists today.. I am awkward when meeting new people so , I think it may take some time for me to get use to all the new faces . Everything is about the same still feeling kinda just stuck here and gloomy , I've been thinking a lot lately though , I've realized I'm lonely a lot. I do not like it . Anyways I start occupational and physical therapy Monday so I will update after that .

Stay beautiful
Love, Leslie

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

22 days

22 days cancer free , never thought I would say this but ever since I finished treatment everything seems gloomy . I know I should be happy but for some reason I am not , I mean I am not sad , its just like I am blank . I don't like it , I wish I could just be happy and have fun but I cant . I have to worry about all these stupid little things . hopefully things will get better .. but who knows .. I have a doctors appointment Friday , I will update after that .


~much love, Leslie